Saturday, February 28, 2009

for my life....


1- Learn the guitar, or jazz, or both, or the trumpet, or the cello...or all
2- Skydive(i know how cliche)
3- Be in choir again
4- Serve a mission
5- Temple and family (technically that's two but definitely is considered one)
6- Graduate with a Master's in something I love
7- Eat authentic Italian
8- Snowboard
9- Cook a seven course meal
10- Learn to speak in accents, or even better, speak several languages
11- Take a dance class
12- Compose...something
13- Make a difference...to someone.


I can't get passed number thirteen? Isn't that bad luck or something?

Sunday, February 22, 2009

for the future missionary...

Well, how are you all? Me again! (who else would it be?)
It's been a relaxing sabbath day so far, and I'm about to make some chocolate chip brownies with my sister. I know what you are thinking. Me? Bake? but...I'm having a craving and it's a good way to spend a relaxing sunday afternoon with the family.
Classes are going well. As you can see, I'm thoroughly enjoying my creative writing class and Wind Ensemble is better than I ever imagined it! Class Piano will be the death of me, but music history will bring me back. The three institute classes I have help me start and end the day off right. PS Isiah rocks!
Job hunting is starting to get ridiculously discouraging and I might have to break my promise to myself about never going the fast food route...But I am trying.
And most importantly. My mission papers are in! or they will be in officially but noon tomorrow. I should be getting my call within three weeks(longest three weeks of my life!). I'm supra excited. I just want to know where I'll be spending the next year and a half of my life sharing the gospel! Wish me Luck!
I think it's about time to make those brownies!

Thursday, February 19, 2009

for the late nights....

Chloe's story is finished! I am turning it in tomorrow at 12:25 to be torn apart, yay!





The overcast sky threatened rain, so Chloe grabbed her green plaid umbrella that hung on a coat rack next to her door. She’d never been fond of the cold rain common in downtown Loren. Wet socks make for cold feet, which in Chloe’s opinion, was one of the worst feelings in the world.
Shrugging, smiling down at her rainboot-clad feet, she stepped outside. Popping up her collar against the beating wind and rain, she shook open her umbrella in one swift swoop. Splashing through puddles, she set a brisk pace towards work.


The click-tap-tick of fingers on keyboards began to lull Chloe into daydreams as she sat studying droplets sliding down the glass pane windows of her office six stories up. In front of her lay the hundredth “next great American novel” of the week. Her eyes drooped. A world of grand adventures, great escapes and forbidden romances of her own began to take shape.
An alarming thump caused Chloe to jump and her eyes shot right back open as soon as they had closed. At once, she spied the large manila folder that had caused the ruckus. Stifling a groan, Chloe’s gaze moved up to Mr. Murrwood’s beady red glare.
The chair squeaked under her as she leaned away from his invading face that was much too close for comfort. “Get to work. Time is money, Burnam!” The familiar odor of coffee and cigarette breath made Chloe’s eyes water.
“Yes, sir.” It was barely audible. There was a lot more Chloe would’ve said, if she could. But, she merely averted her eyes to the large stack of manuscripts that would fill her afternoon. She only looked up when she heard Mr. Murrwood strutting away, clearly in charge. To her left, Stacy—the only person who made working at Loren Publishing bearable—offered an encouraging smile. Chloe returned a meek chuckle, shrugged and rolled her eyes, pulling the yellow folder toward her


A sigh escaped Chloe’s lips as her wide emerald-green eyes stared into the seawater blueness of her tropical fish tank. She was back at her apartment for dinner. Chin resting heavily on her folded arms, slowly rotating back and forth on the swivel chair underneath her, Chloe considered how remarkably similar her life was to the life of that bright yellow tropical angel fish, now making its 57th lap of the hour (Chloe had counted).
She blinked, on the verge of slumber, attempting to push aside the stress of her lengthy “to do” list, avoiding the inevitable. These lists, organized in a tidy blue notebook grasped under Chloe’s folded arms, never left her sight, for they contained her logically sequenced life clearly—numbered and in nice, neat cursive.
Peeling her eyes from the hypnotizing circular path of her fish, she glanced at the clock to her left, over her orderly bed and full book shelves. “5:23 already?” she muttered. Rolling her eyes, she twisted out of her swivel desk chair, allowing it to spin slowly to a stop on its own, swinging her backpack over her right shoulder. As she did, she noticed numbness in her left arm. “Great!” She thought, as her heart pumped rushing blood back into her arm, tingles and pins and all.

The sky looked brighter. The clouds even parted enough to allow some blue to shine through. The sun was trying; she had to give it credit for that. Despite its efforts, Chloe shivered. Pulling her jacket tighter, she headed up Kerby Avenue.
Chloe could’ve walked to the Loren Community College blindfolded. After all, it was the same walk she’d been taking for the last year and a half. That day, the thought of Accounting and Business statistics, however, made the familiar walk very difficult. She lumbered in the almost-warm late afternoon sunlight, delaying the long evening of lectures and numbers as much as possible. She was still clinging to her blue notebook.
Walking into the familiar room with off-white brick walls and brown desks, Chloe slumped into a desk on the third row. Her backpack dropped to the floor. She smiled to a girl sitting next to her and they exchanged the usual “hi’s” and “how are you’s.”
“Okay, class, let’s get started.” Mr. Hugh’s nasal voice pierced through the drone of chatter. His skinny, tall frame was awkward, just like his lectures and soon, Chloe’s mind began to wander. She was finding it harder and harder to keep her reliable numbers from melting together, losing their clarity. In a way, that made Chloe angry.
The fog of her daydream dissipated just as Mr. Hugh was giving out his four page homework assignment, odd numbers only, due Tuesday. He grinned; his students groaned; Chloe frowned. Numbers were becoming her enemy.
Pulling out her blue notebook, she opened to today’s date and made a quick checkmark in the penciled box next to “Accounting.” Fluid strokes of her pen wrote pages 265-269, odd numbers only in the blank spaces underneath the column of uniform checkmarks. Her face contorted and she let out a heavy sigh. After a few goodbyes, she put her life back in her bag and headed out the door. There were still a few blank boxes, waiting to be checked.


“Daydreaming again, huh? Chloe, Mr. Murrwood would not be pleased.” Chloe’s jousting adventure in a far away land was interrupted by Stacy’s warning. It was a nice day for daydreaming, she thought, looking at the blue sky and bright sunlight through her office window six stories up. Chloe twisted to see Stacy in the grey neighboring cubicle to her left and giggled.
“You’re right, Stacy. I need to keep my head out of the clouds. Who knows when Mr. Woodblock will come storming around the corner, breathing fire and orders?” Stacy couldn’t help but giggle, too.
Just then, as if summoned, Mr. Murrwood (Mr. Woodblock to his acquaintances) swung open his office door, making sure his existence was known.
“Right on time,” muttered Stacy, glancing at the clock. She spun back to her computer keyboard and resumed her click-tap-tick typing. Chloe pretended to read the third manuscript of the day, but was acutely aware of Mr. Murrwood’s invasive presence. She started at page 63 for a whole minute, not soaking in one word.
Every week day at 1:30 PM, Mr. Murrwood would sweep his critical eye over the dull office and nod with satisfaction, believing he was fooling everyone into thinking he knew everything there is to know about the publishing business.
He sauntered around the office, hands clasped behind his back. Stopping at Chloe’s desk, his dirty fingers thumbed through the manila folder he had handed her yesterday. Furrowing her eyebrows, Chloe’s blood began to heat.
“And what have you been doing, my dear?”
Chloe shuddered at the thought of Woodblock calling her “dear.” Not only did he call her “dear” but he actually had the nerve to call her his dear. She pressed her lips and turned to page 64 without knowing anything that had happened on page 63, or on any previous page for that matter.
“Haven’t gotten very far, have you. My dear.”
Blood boiling now, Chloe looked up with her eyes flashing. She’d had enough. Mr. Murrwood seemed startled by the sparks. So startled in fact, that he took a step back. His ridiculous know-it-all grin faltered.
Chloe stood, placing the manuscript opened to page 64 on the desk. She picked up her bag, swinging it over her shoulder. Her face flushed red from the fast blood her heart was pumping.
As she walked around her desk, she saw Stacy out of the corner of her eye giggling at her boss’s bewildered face.
“Hey..wa…wait….you can’t…”
Chloe smiled and kept walking.



Sooo? any suggestions?

Reporting from Grammy's Kitchen....GOODNIGHT!

Sunday, January 25, 2009

for the creative soul...

So once upon a time, I was out of my mind and joined a college creative writing class....this is the beginning of my story.



A sigh escaped Chloe’s lips as her wide emerald-green eyes stared into the seawater blueness of her tropical fish tank. Chin resting heavily on her folded arms, slowly rotating back and forth on the swivel chair underneath her, Chloe considered how remarkably similar her life was to the life of that bright yellow tropical angel fish, now making its 57th lap of the day (Chloe had counted).
She blinked, on the verge of slumber, attempting to push aside the stress of her overwhelmingly long “to do” list, avoiding the inevitable. The notebook grasped under Chloe’s folded arms never left her sight, for it contained her logically sequenced life clearly—numbered and in nice, neat cursive.
Peeling her eyes from the hypnotizing circular path of her fish, she glanced at the clock to her left, over her orderly bed and book shelves. “8:23 already?” she muttered. Rolling her eyes, she twisted out of her swivel desk chair, allowing it to spin slowly to a stop on its own, swinging her backpack over her right shoulder. As she did, she noticed for the first time numbness in her left arm. “Great!” She thought, as her heart pumped rushing blood back into her arm, tingles and pins and all.


I am starting to think I'm not so bad at this. And even if I am and don't know, it was darn fun!

Friday, January 16, 2009

for the unhelpful...

I am home on a friday night, in my pjs, wishing I could find my check book and I'm having a feeling this will be happening a lot more from tonight on. Not the wishing I could find my check book part. You know what I mean.
I made it through my first week of school and I think I'm going to be enjoying this semester's classes immensely. Music History I already find amazing as we have been exploring the wonderful music of Palestrina and I have to say, we don't give him enough credit. He composed some stunningly beautiful pieces. My creative writing teacher, while a little ecentric will definitely do some good things for me, I think. If anything, I'll definitely be out of my comfort zone. Good thing, right? Wind Ensemble is everything I had hoped! Also out of my comfort bubble, becuase I am very exposed, even as a third clarinet. Scott Hagan has a lot of good instruction to offer and I'm excited to be part of such a talented group/section.
The U of U marching Utes are leaving for DC tomorrow at night at midnight. Or would that be considered sunday morning? *shrug* that seems surreal, almost like it's just a dream. We've been campaigning for this oppirtunity for the past week and had an astounding response from the community with support that I didn't even know existed for the band! Heck, we even got free backpacks!
I'm hoping for a call from the flower patch to get a temporary job. I had a job interview with them today and thought it went very well. It would be nice to have some sort of income. Cross your fingers for me!
Frustration is annoying! Knowing that ultimately, I can't do anything to change someones mind about what they think...it seems I'm making little difference where I am, and I really am frustarted with that. I see so many people around me who are hurting and I want to help, but feel unhelpful! Hurting more than helping it seems.
I really dislike that I have nothing more interesting to say and a more interesting way to say what's already been said...
I hope everyone is doing alright, and making it with whatever situation life may be handing them. Thank you for your examples and friendship:-) I mean it when I say I love you.

Until next time, wish the band luck in DC!

Monday, January 12, 2009

for the first day back...

First day of classes? Completed!

Fundraising for DC? Going swimmingly, but we are still needing some help! (www.utah.edu) GO UTES!

Letter and pictures from a dear friend? Check!

People should not have to apologize for caring....

Sunday, January 11, 2009

for the old friends and the new...

School starts tomorrow! I'm excited to not have my brain be turning to mush anymore. I'm excited for the oppirtunities this semester has in store! We, the U of U marching band, are (hopefully) headed off to DC in a week ready for some fun at the presidental inaugaration parade! Also, I am part of a wonderful music group, Wind Ensemble and several exciting things are happening in that department, but personally, I'm just happy to be IN it period.

I have not been this happy in a long time. Randomly, my dear cousin Ember drove down yesterday to take me up to Logan. I didn't know what I was getting myself into! We headed out to see my sister Clarissa and played a goofy but oddly very fun game called settler's. Next was the part I was most worried about, but it turned out to be great. We went to a former boyfriend's apartment. He has just started at USU as a chemistry major. I know most can relate to the awkward "seeing the ex" thing, and for those of you who can't, that's okay. Imagine my surprise when we turned out to get along great, just like old friends.
Seeing Karyn for the first time since, well, forever, was a quite joyous experience. You can ask anyone within a mile radius because I am pretty sure we burst some eardrums. There were almost tears, but once the game of Quelf started rolling(if you have never played this game, basically, you must), laughter was constant! New friendships were formed, and old bonds were made stronger, and the medicine of laughter worked it's magic, for more then just me.
A bit of guilt comes with the next statment. I sometimes wished I had choosen USU over Univeristy of Utah. I know, I know! Blasphamy right? If anyone has ever heard me talk about my snow college years, they know how dear to my heart they are, and USU has the atmosphere of snow. Now, I just want to say, I do not regret my deicison to go to the U, becuase, I know I was meant to be there...am meant to be there. I learned so much about the world and have formed life long friendships that I would never trade. But for the record, I am considering a transfer when I return from my planned mission. Just a thought....

Anyway, my five fourty five alarm will come too soon as it is, so I should turn in. I hope everyone's life is going well.

I am honest when I say I am here for you all!

Reporting from Plain City, sleep well.